I read your email and am so proud for what you said.
I completely understand everything quite clearly, and yes, at the end
of the day, it is all within us - coming to terms with our own issues, finding
our own way.
Not that there is anything wrong with hearing and sharing from and with others,
(that's extremely helpful), the ultimate recognition is, what does our own heart say, what
does our Higher Mind say, and only until we come to full terms with going
within for our own truths, our own guidance, our own revelations, will it
become our reality.
Another thing is, we have somehow felt along the way that spiritual
enlightenment is about, not feeling the pain or the hurt, or sadness. We have an unreal notion that it will be perpetual bliss and feeling
"good" all the time. In my mind that is - unnatural. No matter what,
whilst in this body, we are spiritual
beings having a human experience
therefore, will still go through the experiences that calls for sadness,
hurt and/or pain.
The only difference is, because we have acquired expanded awareness, it
allows us to see things differently. We do not have to remain stuck in the throes of difficult emotions.
We will master the art of guiding our thoughts and can decide how long we wish to be in that place,
but we cannot escape experiencing the "all" there is to life.
I think that is something we need to honor as a sacred part of the journey. We have to feel the pain, so we can step out of it. I think too many of us have been trying to escape experiencing difficult emotions as it somehow indicates that we have not evolved on our spiritual path, but therein lies the problem, because until we truly embrace the pain are we able to transform it.
"Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadows of death, I will fear no evil for thou art with me, thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me".
So now, when the sadness comes and I look into it - face to face - I cry if I have
to, I scream, rant or rave, whatever the feeling is in that moment, and when it
is done, I blow my nose, wipe my tears and keep focused on the journey.
I think if we start to view it in this way, it takes away much of the
drama associated with it, I think it will create a sense of, "ok,
this is what it is" and, it too shall pass.
So in this vein, let us open ourselves
to the fullness of our experiences, whatever they are while at the same time,
being absolutely conscious of our thoughts and ceaselessly trying to guide
them towards better feeling ones.
In the end, we become Masters of our own destinies.
With all my love,
nerak